Boys and Girls

I babysit two kids in my complex a couple times a week. The boy is four and his little sister is almost two. They are so funny. Yesterday as I was watching them, I was thinking to myself how different boys and girls are even in the same family. The little girl LOVES baby dolls and is so sweet. She wraps everything up in a blanket and carries it around. Her brother wants to be a "transformer doctor" when he grows up (he loves transformers and both his parents are in nursing school) and he does not stop talking... ever. Yesterday we were counting cars out my dining room window when B put this little hand on my shoulder and said in a very serious tone;

B: Mrs. Christiana, when I was young some bad guys got me and threw me out of a building and killed me. They broke my lips and my brain and I had to go to the hospital.

Me: Oh no. Thats not good. Well I'm glad you're ok now. 

B: Yeah. The doctor had to fix me and then I had to fight the bad guys. They made me shrink and the doctor had to stretch me back out.

Me: Oh really. 

B: Yes ma'am they did. Then Jesus Christ came and helped me out and the bad guys ran away.

Me: Oh thats good. Jesus sure loves you. I'm glad he helped you.

B: Yeah. They tried to get me at the temple too so I had to fight them. (there just happened to be a picture of the temple right by him)

Me: Well did Jesus help you at the temple? He protects the temple. 

B: No I just had to fight them. I punched them in the face and the arms. 

This conversation lasted another 20 minutes. He has such an imagination and loves to save the world. He is always telling me stories about fighting bad guys. He will continue to tell me even if I get a phone call and am talking to someone else. He just follows me around all day and loves to make me play transformers with him. He never lets mine die though so we end up playing forever!!!  If I leave the room to put something away he yells out that I'm supposed to be babysitting him and not to leave! So funny. His little sister loves to cuddle and touch my nail polish and earings. Boys and girls are so different even when they are little!  

Coke

I tried so hard this year to quit my soda addiction but it's just not working and we are only in February! What's wrong with me? I just love diet coke and red bull. I guess it's good that I can at least admit I have a problem. I really do want to stop drinking it so much and I have cut back since the new year, just not all the way (I'm drinking a coke right now). Baby steps I guess. Justin and I were going over some finance stuff this morning and he was counting all the times I've made drink stops in the last couple weeks. Darn spending history. HELP!!!

Homemaker Me!

I just realized I've been quite the homemaker this week! I did a pretty deep clean on the house, finished my first quilt, made Justin his Valentines Day gift, hung pictures in our room, and today I made Jam with Natalie! Take note that this is all new for me. I'm not usually so domestic! Here are some pictures;

Todays Strawberry Jam. 

Justin's V-Day Gift. I framed a collage of tickets from things we've been to together and also framed a list I made of things I love about him. They turned out cute!

Hung these in our room...

My first quilt. Made with the help of Dodie and Candice. 

Friday Night Loner :(

I don't think I've spent a night alone since Justin and I got married. This past friday was the first. Justin got an invite to go night skiing and since he loves to ski but doesn't get to do it much anymore I encouraged him to go. I feel bad when he takes me skiing because I'm not very good and like to spend half the day on the bunny slopes and the other in the lodge drinking hot chocolate. I slow him down. Knowing he would have a blast going with a bunch of boys, I told him I would do a girls night or something and pushed him out the door.

I started my night with a bowl of ice cream and a hot shower. I got all dressed up thinking I'd stop by my cousins Amy's 20th birthday party but then decided it might be weird to show up alone and party with a bunch young kids awkwardly flirting with each other without having Justin or my sister to sit in the corner with. So instead I went over to my neighbors and volunteered to watch their 2 year old and give them the chance to go out. Sounds lame but I figured I'd let someone else go out and enjoy their night if I wasn't. Well Kristy (my neighbor) is pregnant and wasn't feeling like going out anyways but insisted I hang out for a bit. So I did. After an hour or so I headed back to my place, grabbed my keys and went to the birthday party. I was right. There was loud music and pizza and flirting. I grabbed a slice of pizza and a couple movies to borrow and snuck out of there after hugging Amy and wishing her a happy 20th. I was there for maybe five minutes. On my way home Justin called to tell me they were heading back and to meet them at IHOP in an hour. So I went home and started watching a movie I knew Justin would hate (Mama Mia) while I waited for them to get close. Shortly after starting the movie Jus called to let me know they broke down and were waiting for a tow truck and a ride and it would be a little longer... so around 1:00 am I headed out to IHOP. They were starving by this point and so was I. This time I was late... I got pulled over just before getting on the freeway! It took forever because I couldn't find the registration (the glove box is a mess). Plus cops are always slow. I finally arrived annoyed and tired but was excited to be with Justin. I need to make more friends so I can have some girl time!!! 

Hair Issues...

About a month ago Justin and I were out grocery shopping and I decided to pick up a bottle of hair dye to get the left over blonde from the summer back to it's natural color. Justin convinced me to get a darker color because he saw a picture of me in high school with dark hair and thought it would look "hot"... so I did. I thought it would turn out close to his color but nope! It's Almost black!!! I was almost in tears as I blow dried it. It's faded a little but still, I just cant get used to it. So on Friday, I'm going to get it fixed. I can't wait!

American Idol...

Tonight was the American Idol kick off. Pretty funny stuff. It's so odd to me that some of these people think they are actually talented... or do they?? I always wonder which of these people are just a little desperate for their five minutes of fame and which have liars for friends. One chick even went to the extreme of wearing a bikini to the audition! That girl was nuts. Ryan thought so too hands down. I guess it is worth the hour of entertainment it provides us every week. Justin laughs his head off. Thank you weirdos. There were however a couple of AI wannabe's that I think were there for the right reasons and had some working vocal chords. One girl, I think her name is Adrianna, competed with my sister in the Miss California competition a few years ago. She sounded really good. Especially for being so young. I actually tried out this season in Salt Lake but didn't make it through. I wonder which category I fall under!

And he's out...

Its about 11pm on Friday night and I'm wide awake. Justin is out cold in bed with the movie "Elf" playing on the tube. Since I'm not tired, I thought Id play around on the computer for a bit (after going through mail, emptying trash, folding laundry, etc...) We went out to dinner and saw a movie a little earlier and I guess that was as much as the guy could handle after working all day. 

Since we got married there have been quite a few nights like this. I quit my job before the big day thinking that I'd start teaching again, but as it turns out... there are lots of music teachers in the area and students aren't as easy to find as I thought they would be. So Justin is making most the dough and I've sorta become a house wife. At first I loved it. It was nuts to wake up in the morning and be able to sit down and eat breakfast and read for a bit, go to the gym, just whatever. I started practicing every day and everything seemed great! But after a while I found myself counting down the minutes till he got home. I started feeling lonely during the day and for the first time in a long time I felt bored. I used to daydream at work about what it would be like to be bored. Now I find myself missing work! What's wrong with me??!! I told Justin the other day I wanted a baby just so there was someone around to talk to, lol. He said that was a dumb reason to have a baby and I suppose he is right.  I need to get more involved in the community I think. Start writing again, pick up some of my hobbies and interests I set aside when I entered the grown up world.

Normally this wouldn't bother me. When we were dating/engaged, i worked full time and later than he did so he had time to take a nap until I got off work and we could relax together. Now, I can't wait for him to get home every day and by then I'm ready to go out and talk, talk ,talk and he is ready to rest. But don't get me wrong. I always have things to do. Just not like I used to. I think I'm just having a hard time adjusting to all the change. Its hard to find a balance but I guess I should feel lucky I'm married to someone that takes care of me. :)